end of school.
suddenly i realize everything has ended for the first year. too much time in band room and never able to pay attention during lectures. thats why u see retarded eric starting to go lectures after promos. to smell the theatre before he goes into the holidays.
one year ended and all about it is band, band, band. it gets really exhausting at times. i wonder how i find the shit loads of passio to practise everyday. indulging myself in the music i make.
class 07s41. what have i done. i look at them and they are still strangers to me. never ever close to them, i know them as much as the day when i first stepped into the class on a january friday physics tutorial.
there is a sense of urgency. i want to know more, to do more. realized how fast time passes this year made me regretted not cherishing more. im never good at balancing. fun and studies, band and class. it's always one much more than the other, not even abit close.
what's the point. even if i try to make use of everyday to squeeze in the slightest time to go out with what i have failed to cherish the whole of this year even if it has to be a whole night out, the year is ending and nothing can be done.
and the saddest thing is, it took me long to realize it. i only get this kind of feeling during our bbq. band bbq and class bbq, right after promos, and 2 totally different feeling. being able to hang out with any single one and feeling a slight lonliness, left out.
if i could rewind the time and get everything right.
next year it will be a shitloads of mugging and it will no longer be as carefree as this year. suddenly everything will be gone and we will bid each other goodbye realizing that after all this while we never get to actually know each other. when we start to regret it it's already time to sing the graduation song.
that's how i felt last year with 4c and i definitely not want to feel the same thing again cos it hurts at how the time loves to deprive us of this wonderful times we could have together.
i don't want, i don't want Christmas to come. cos it meant that a year has passed.
