it's saturday, again.
this time, it's a cold and empty one. maybe's cause of band. no more waking up early in the morning to play the saxophone, no more after band activities. next week's promos and that's everyone's conversation topic now. "what is..." "why is it..."
useless i feel when it comes to studying-for-examinations period. looking at how others handle it so quickly can be quite demoralising. when im just trying to convince myself that i understand all those concepts that never ever rang a bell within me.
it seems practically so unfair how some people treat their friends differently at different point of time. when exams come, smart people are their best friends and when it's over fun people comes into the picture. smart at how the way they make use and manipulate the situation to suit themselves perfectly?
this point of time- i guess many things have changed abit, some totally. i walked into band room and felt different when i see different people. there are times when i feel something burning in my fist and there are times when some people never failed to make me smile.
thinking of that, i felt so guillible how i used to believe in something so immensely that i have secretly lost myself within it.
